Posted by truthoughts on June 26, 2010
Testimony: Alice Williams
(*From a copy post*)
Thursday, July 23, 2009 at 11:47am recorded last week.
Praise the Lord,
Today, I’m going to share with all of you of how the Lord changed my life. Ever since I was a little girl I believed in God. I used to hear my grandparents saying the Lord’s Prayer every night before they went to sleep. We would go to church with them every Sunday or attend Sunday school. However, I didn’t really know the meaning of really walking with the Lord. My upbringing was good; we had love and kindness in our home. But then again we all have choices to make and lives to live.
As I got older, I became stubborn and wanted to do things my way. I tried drinking alcohol when I was about 16 years old. I sure hated the taste. Alcohol lingered in my life until I was about 19 years old. I really didn’t like drinking, so I dropped it! Simple as that, I thought, I can have fun with my friends without it. However, I still felt that something was missing. I was not really happy.
Years went by, I got married, had three children. My life was not turning out the way I wanted it. I can’t share everything that took place with me, but I can tell you, my life was hell. I survived the most vile, abusive, tormenting life a human being can endure. There had to be God looking out for me because if not I would not be here today. Thank you, Lord, for your love and forgiveness. I have a very tender heart and I love all people. I am not perfect, and the Lord helps me each day, He corrects me if I get out of line. It is a narrow walk, it is a wonderful walk.
Anyways, I picked today July 23, 2009 to share this with all of you because 14 years ago I suffered a dark horrible depression. I was sick for two years. It was very tormenting, like living under a black cloud. All of my happiness, laughter, strength evaporated from my being. I cried all the time. My children were younger, and I couldn’t even look after them right. My parents helped me a lot. Thank you Lord for Christian parents! I felt so alone, I was extremely sad all the time. I prayed a lot for the Lord to restore my health and happiness. Still, I felt so isolated from everyone and everything! Panic and anxiety attacks were constantly there.
I remember one winter day, January 1996 I became very angry and fed up. I was staying at my parents place, and started smashing up the bedroom. I just wanted to die. I was suicidal, my plan was to drive somewhere, let my car run and kill myself. My love for my family and faith in God kept me. I ended up going to the Crisis Unit for a few days. I came home, but the dark cloud was still there. My parents prayed for me. I prayed. I became closer with the Lord. I reached out and He was there with me. Even in the darkest times, God was there, holding my hand, renewing my spirit and soul!
Again, even after all that I had been through I went to church, but never really committed my life to the Lord. He blessed me with so much! I had my family, my health was restored. I was blessed with a nice home and full time job. What more could a person be blessed with. I got involved in unhealthy relationships and more sinful living. I was not at peace. It just was not right! This was not sincere happiness. The Lord was knocking at my heart! I had to give Him my whole life! No turning back this time. When Jesus gets a hold of your life, you will know. Take heed to His call my friends. You won’t be sorry!
Three years ago, I rededicated my life to Jesus Christ. I’m very happy that I chose to serve the Lord. I want His love to shine through me so others will know Jesus as well. I’m still learning lots of things about this walk. Every day is a gift. I love all of you people out there. Like I mentioned before, I’m not perfect, no one is! When we fall down, or feel down, get back up. When Jesus carried that cross and died on it, He died for you and me. We need to acknowledge His love and forgiveness. He is there, He will never leave or forsake us, however, we all have choices. It is up to us.
If you are bound by alcohol or drugs and you think there is no way out. That’s not true, the Lord will help you. You can call on Him today. He will give you the desires of your heart. He will restore what is broken. Just trust in Him. In God’s word, in John Chapter 10 verse 10, Jesus said, “The thief comes only to steal, and kill and destroy; I came that they might have life, and might have it more abundantly.”The peace of the Lord is so wonderful. I’m not saying that this walk is not challenging. It is, but the Lord is the one who will carry us through. Trust him! Don’t tarry too long without Him. I want to thank you all for reading my testimony. I will keep on praying and serving the Lord. Our God is an awesome God! My prayers and love to you all! God bless you all. Amen.
“And the Spirit and the bride say, “Come.” And let the one who hears say “Come.” And let him who is thirsty come: let the one who wishes take the water of life without cost.” Revelation 22:17